I slice.
It is art
my backhand
against the practice wall
a mural
at a public court
green boards
hanging
on chain link
latex
on plywood.
My tennis is an illusion
there is a white line smeared all the way across the wall as if Picasso were the city worker
who
distorted me
it’s not even
really a net
there are no poles
it is held up only in the abstract
on a day.
Nothing
really ends
with a Pablo line smeared across a green wall composition
there is no real over just
shot
shot
a cruel thudding
a percussion you can interpret for miles.
The deuce guys playing next to me aren’t real good
they are arms with crane feet swatting at bees
on a court with a meridian net stretched out sideways, winched up high
reckoning their sides
they keep score
as time zones
crossed
in.
They can pause and marvel as I slice it back-
hand low and spinning
again and again
a yellow tennis ball
skidding
smack
dab.
My time spins backward as far as it will unroll
snapping tight at a beginning
that doesn’t hang between anything as simple as days
or points
all that can be over
and beyond the long lines.
It is how I am here
alone
repetitively sad
among you
knees bent
brushed
onto the scaly, green surface of existence
up close
just
splats
of
epidermis
on a good-looking afternoon
for tennis.
I slice.